where to find God: down, not up

 
 

“I had always imagined God to be in the same general direction as everything else that I valued: up. I had failed to appreciate the meaning of the description of God as the "ground of being." I had to be forced underground before I could understand that the way to God is not up but down.”
- Parker Palmer, Let Your Life Speak

Yogis and gurus have it easy, I figure. No mortgage to pay, no lover to argue with or long for, no groceries to pick up. No parking tickets. Detachment must be a cake walk when devotees are bringing you food and cash.

You want to show me evolved? Then get a j-o-b. Navigate inter-office conflicts, hormones, interest rates, and family holidays with meditative calm. I dare you.

I’m being facetious of course. Ascension can be a bitch. And there are many spiritual masters who have earned their silky cushions and well-supported lifestyles ... to whom I deeply bow.

But for me, the aim to transcend has proved to be a distraction. Maybe enlightenment is not attained with out of body experiences, or astral travel, or rising above the mundane, profane and banal of everyday life.

Perhaps, as activist Parker Palmer puts it, God is down, not up. Perhaps God has temper and likes Her meat rare. Maybe He hangs out with crazy people and likes a bargain. Perhaps God is waiting to be found in the things we try to avoid.

The hours I’ve logged in the lotus position have expanded my mind, and even sweetened me. Examining cosmological concepts has sharpened my intellect and fueled my charisma. My higher pursuits are decent. But my life always calls me, sometimes wrenches me, back down to the ground. Back to my little home, like a million other homes on earth, filled with minutiae and temperaments and soft tiny experiences of joy.

My greatest lessons have not come from my time in Ashrams or on retreat. Retreats are where I go to process what I learn from everyday living. My greatest growth comes from the black mucky fertile mess of my relationships ... when I do the hard work of loving someone the way they deserve to be loved. When I go down into the sensuality of the present. When I go...

Down into surprising self-hatred. Down into feeling helpless in the face of Gaza and Sudan and ignorance and toxins and homelessness.

Down into deep sex and smells and hedonistic funkaliciousness.

Down to nuzzle a crying friend or baby.

Down into the dirt to lift branches and clear space, and carry boxes into a new little home, like a million other homes on the earth.

Maybe God is something you need to “get into” rather than aspire to. When I retired from rising above my life and just “settled” with being here and being human, something amazing happened: I stopped feeling guilty for being...me. If you’re not ascending you’re stuck with yourself, and that’s much more fun than I ever thought possible.

Life is messy. Dig deep.



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  • JeanetteLeBlanc
    Damn it, this is so crazy powerful it blows my mind. Thank you, just for being you.
  • oooh, Danielle, again you make me sweaty with possibility... and terrified with introspection. deeeeeep bow, sista.
  • I am trying to stop looking.
    I want to stop looking.
    I'll let you know when i realize there is nothing to find.
    as always,
    thx!
  • This has definitely got me thinking. Very seldom do I read a post that makes me sit and consider my life. But that's what a great writer does, right!
  • Stephen Fraser
    Your message parallels my own experience and my own insight...my only regret after reading this was that I did not know it earlier....when I was leaving to go off to University, my father took my aside and left me with a truth that he had learned over the course of his life time "bullshit baffles brains" was what he said....along the path I realized that his truth did have some validity...but I think 'this' truth...that perhaps God and meaning can be found in the small details of our lives may well have been more helpful...
  • I am crying in a coffeshop...
  • dara gay cole
    thank you for the delicious reminder that my nourishment is in the mess. ummm...as i wrote that my dog puked into his food bowl and ate it and my toddler "unpacked" the tv cabinet. time to dance in celebration.
  • Megan
    It is nice to hear all the ways I can define a spiritual life. I need that. I'm a natural cynic, tough critic and over-thinker and too easily I can dismiss something I am loving and doing as unimportant or just wrong. I push myself that I can do better, that what I have today is not enough - spirituality is no different. Lately I am seeing that my relationship with a higher power is a mirror of my relationship with my inner, true self and that my HP is leading me back to myself all the time. And myself is found in those little details you so beautifully described. Thank you for your perspective.
  • I re-read this post ALOT. God is in the very things that, out of fear, i hold the furthest from me. I know he's there, I feel it, i know it. But i won't touch it with a ten foot pole! The last few years I've thought about this everyday-the struggle to ascend-business or spirituality? Should my business be spirituality? Should I just do spiritual business? Thanks for this Danielle.
  • I think digging ditches can be spiritual ... it's all about the energy, not necessarily the form.
  • John Fellows
    Hey Danielle. Congrats on a smokin' creation and kudos to the 2:30 folks.
    You appeared today when my favourite poem from high school appeared.
    The Road Not Taken http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w62ptBOsc7U
    And you have made all the difference. Thank God for the D Portal.
    John Fellows
  • John! how nice to see you here. Hope you're well.
    xo
    D
  • Hi Danielle,

    Thanks for your honesty - I love it. Somehow your article just popped up on my screen, no coincidence. But rather than aspire to or get into God, I believe that God is in each one of us so there is no where to go. It just is, we are God, we are the creator, we have the divine spark, the flame of creative source energy within each and everyone of us. Therefore we can honor and love ourselves (higher and lower) just as we honor and love God.

    Thanks for your voice and speaking your truth!

    LOVE,
    Beth
  • i'm really late to this conversation, but whatever...

    i met a guy at a deepak chopra lecture here in barcelona last year. when i asked what he did for a living, he said, 'something in computers, but that's not my *real life*. my real life is my spiritual life'. aside from thinking he was certifiably insane, i thought, poor computers. poor clients. poor boss and colleagues. how do they handle being treated with so little care and respect by this man?? back then i didn't have enough spanish to argue with him. but now i can translate this into spanish, just in case i run into him again... don't worry. i'll provide the link!!
    beautiful, truth-telling stuff.
  • it's never to late to join the party!
  • Jagadish
    "In Him We Live, and Move, and have our Being"

    It's in the Bible for Christs sake..!
  • This ----->Maybe He hangs out with crazy people and likes a bargain<.-------------

    Is totally God. And he probably hangs out with me :-) [I like crazy people too]
  • three shouts for crazy. hip hip hooray.
  • QuiteLight
    Thank you.
  • what a great post... i have heard people talk like this, but never seen it written anywhere. when i think back, the god moments happen somewhat counter-intuitively... never in a church or a yoga retreat or zen meditation center but more when i'm regular every day stuff, when a sadness is lifted, or when an idea strikes, you name it.. it makes me think if those moments happen because of everyday life, that god is probably in all the other moments too.

    and thanks for following me on twitter! now i found you!
    :)
  • Very poignant post.

    Another way I think about this "God/dess" stuff is that it isn't up or down, it's in. JC said it: "The kingdom of Heaven is within." And who is in Heaven? God/dess, of course!
  • Annabelle
    thank you. thank you.
  • Suzanne Frank
    Act justly, love mercy and walk with G-d. It's walking ... through wind and sleet and rain and sun ... slogging at times, crawling at others, but rarely if ever glamorous or instantaneous. Thanks for the reminder -- the encouragement -- to embrace the dirt. To play in it and with it. Maybe that's where we truly find creation, creativity? You're such a catalyst -- thank you!
  • "love mercy". that's a powerful aspiration combination - made me sigh.
  • MoJo
    I've learned to love 'digging in the dirt' as Peter Gabriel would say, and wallowing in my muck...it's where I've found the most truth and beauty (when I can sit with it long enough to let it pass through me, or me through it).

    Thank you. Again.
  • My girl L'Tanya says we have to learn to look into the rooms that we normally keep closed. I've been talking a lot lately about "drilling down." It's about dealing with the Real. I've been circling in the spiritual self-help realm for a long time and I think that the constant looking up, up, up makes you dizzy after a while. At least it makes your neck stiff. And you certainly can't move (can't dance, can't make love, can't bend) with a stiff neck. Life is about flexing, moving, growing, dealing. Getting into the down-and-dirty of life--and basking in that.
  • Sooz
    Amen to this. I'm in total agreement. Jack Kornfield ... "After the laundry, then the Ecstacy"?
  • Hi there~ I just found your blog through "Using your powers for good." Brilliant posts...I have thought the same kind of things. High five sista~
  • Where we are this very second is life. This is it. Here we are!

    And you're absolutely right- it's messy and delicious and captivating and yes, sometimes damn hard.

    Much love to you and your incredible deep thinking, yet entirely present posts. Keep up the inspiration D.
  • I love this, Danielle. I had an interesting conversation with a hypnotherapist recently, who told me that people tend to lean towards being inhalers or exhalers. I am an exhaler- I can exhale all day, but taking in air is an effort I need to make consciously. This apparently lines up with a desire to get up and out of the body- slipping off into the lotus position as well as a big desire to get away from the practical and earthy.

    after meeting with michaela, she encouraged me to breathe in consciously for 5 min a day, and focus on taking in and connecting to the ground and the earth. After a month, it's really having an impact. I am so much happier to get down. Thanks for bringing the idea home again.

    Thank you inhalers, with your earthy connection to the present for being my teachers!
  • yep..."God-ess" for want of a better word, for me, is a messy, creative, accepting presence who revels in my humanity and all its fun, foils and frailty. Definitely down. Definitely within.
  • I want someone to let me know if they find a place where God is not... :)
  • WalMart?
  • Emerson Zora Hamsa
    You know I love you! :)

    What you propose is one of my most challenging tasks. I have always looked for God in those "high places"; perhaps it is time for me to get involved in my own life. Today you reminded me that there is a holiness that is my life that I
    have yet to see. Thanks.

    *m
  • Thanks you Jonathan for turning me on to this sweet blog!
    LOVE THIS POST!
  • Love this. Earthy, truthful wisdom. I love it.
  • Amen, Sister!! Too many people try to find enlightenment in a book, spell, or prayer; too many people try to find God in a church, sacred grove, temple, or mosque. As the Christians say, God is love. When you show love, give love, or receive love, then you are one with God...no matter how you perceive Him/Her/It to be.
  • biren
    ah! but isn't it possible to find god THRU, if not IN, a book, spell or prayer?
    isn't it possible to find god WHEN you don't find god WHERE you thot you would find him?
    don't we find god when and where we are opened - to our-selves?
    so... we find god anywhere and everywhere.... don't we (as a group)?
  • I just checked out your blog - I'd never heard the term, "Omnitheistic Pagan." Ahhh. I may have to get me a badge.
  • what if god was one of us
    just a slob like one of us
    just a stranger on the bus, trying to find his way home

    i suppose you were hoping for some fiery opposition to this sacrilege, but of course it's right on. Back in the 1940's, a southern baptist preacher named Clarence Jordan was repeatedly run out of town for heretical teachings that we should not deify Christ, not push god and christ up to unattainable perfect heavenly status, but rather look for and nurture holiness within ourselves and our communities and daily lives.
  • Sacrilege? Who, me? Your Clarence note reminds of another perspective that needs to butt-kicked: "God-fearing."
  • As they say in Zen: "What's the meaning of the Buddha?"

    Three chin of flax.
  • I LOVE the acknowledgment that finding God is about looking down, digging deep - through the muck and quagmire of dirty laundry, visits to the principal's office to deal with your kid's behaviour, running a business, dealing with your family's only car whose engine need's replacing, being temporary single married mama etc etc etc. Inspiring article indeed!
  • Wow. I echo Natasha...I too have had great difficulty of late in focusing on a post longer than a few paragraphs. This was mesmerizing and well, well worth the read. You articulate things in such an interesting and captivating way, that I just want to read anything you have to share. Your perspective is enlightening and teaches me so much.
    With love,
    Tam
  • Emily-Sarah
    Llife-changing. Wow -- and thank you.
  • Natasha Lakos
    This is really beautiful Danielle. Lately I have the attention span of a fly when it comes to reading most things, online or on paper, but your writing always slows me down and gives me some real food for thought (and action!). I read, and re-read your pieces and inevitably come back to read again. As always, thank you for sharing your gifts.
  • Maria
    Danielle,
    I love your parents, I love Canada, and every other thing that had something to do with you showing up! You are making a lazy girl like me look forward to digging deep?!
  • what 'til I tell my mama. Dig on, sister, dig on.
  • God is, indeed, in the details. There's a quote I live by (and I believe it's Mother Teresa, though I could be horribly wrong): We can do no great things, only small things with great love. You don't show your love to your family by granting them wishes and throwing vast amounts of money at them [note to my family: please don't feel like I wouldn't like it if you chose to do this for me, okay?]. You show them love by changing their diapers, wiping the tears and snot off their faces, cooking and cleaning up, hashing out the messy details, looking past and getting over their ugly habits the way they do with yours. I believe that God desires this from us.
  • Gina Batali-Brooks
    This was amazing! Thanks for sharing and giving me something to think about...it's ok to be me and try to embrace God in the here and now.
  • This was very interesting and enlightning for me. You started following me on twitter so I clicked your profile, saw your website and read this post first. God is talking to me through so many people right now. I am maturing as a mother, daughter and girlfriend. Again, great post! I will be back to read more.
  • Gut-wrenching post. Wasn't religion invented to help people escape their misery? And yet the real deal comes from embracing it. The notion turns one's world upside down.

    We do this with fear. We try to avoid it. But when we confront it, fear loses its power over us.

    Is there a Blog Post of the Year award? This should get it.

    BTW, I came here by way of Jenny Ryan.
  • I never thought I'd take 'gut-wrenching' as a compliment. But I do. Here's to embracing the real deal. Thank you.
  • kim
    Thank you
  • Lucia Frangione
    what an articlulate and profound, honest article, Danielle, so timely. I have a visceral response to this, it immediately grounds me. I immediately shake off my apology for being complex.
  • Candis Hoey
    LoveLoveLove todays blog.Something to think about all day.
    Merci!
    C
  • God is in the garden...and She's smiling.
  • God is mexican?!?

    hahaha j/k

    great post, you've won a fan

    -Bella :)
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